Morning blues.
Never beg for love. Never beg someone to love you back or be with you when you want to. Never beg for someone's time, commitment, affection and attantion. Never beg someone to stay with you when you need him the most. Because in the first place, if he loves you that much, he won't leave you and let go of your hand. He will never let you beg for his presence and love because he will give it to you with open arms. Don't beg, it's demeaning and degrading. Remember, if you have to beg, he's not worth it. No one is worth begging for.
Words by: E.J Cenita
such an eye opener for me this early morning. I guess the sign that I am asking for to God showing me almost every night and every day. I guess it's really time to face the reality that I just wronged again. I was wrong to let myself to fall in love to someone who's feelings was just temporary and inconsistent. No one can love me the way I do but my family and myself. It really feels degrading everytime I remember how I beg to him to give me a proper and formal break up because he knows once we see each other he'll see how devastated I am and he'll just forgive me to be together again for the sake of so called 'AWA'. And I don't want that. Nobody wants that. I let myself to get fooled. It still really hurt to know that I am not worth it to be undestand and to love despite of my flaws. I always envy my mom and dad for having an unconditional love regardless even if my mom was a nagger and moody sometimes same goes with my father that whose sometimes very impatient yet they still together through ups and down. Maybe that's the reason why I am afraid to settle down because I am looking forward to be like them in the future. Nad that's the reason why I am so disappointed right now because I thought I found someone to share my everything with. Still, I was wrong again.. for a couple of days I let myself cry big time for the first time. I feel so tired with everything but I have to be strong in order to survive as no one understand me well the way I think. I feel my life starting to do it's move and preparing me with everything. And then I realize maybe God found it's way how will I cope up with everything.
As for myself I think I really should focus with my career and future. I will just forget that love thingy. I should focus now to myself and my family.
If really love is for me I will let it but not on easy way like I used to.
I will stop craving for attention and affection. I hope I can do this with the help of our dear Lord God.
All is well.
Words by: E.J Cenita
such an eye opener for me this early morning. I guess the sign that I am asking for to God showing me almost every night and every day. I guess it's really time to face the reality that I just wronged again. I was wrong to let myself to fall in love to someone who's feelings was just temporary and inconsistent. No one can love me the way I do but my family and myself. It really feels degrading everytime I remember how I beg to him to give me a proper and formal break up because he knows once we see each other he'll see how devastated I am and he'll just forgive me to be together again for the sake of so called 'AWA'. And I don't want that. Nobody wants that. I let myself to get fooled. It still really hurt to know that I am not worth it to be undestand and to love despite of my flaws. I always envy my mom and dad for having an unconditional love regardless even if my mom was a nagger and moody sometimes same goes with my father that whose sometimes very impatient yet they still together through ups and down. Maybe that's the reason why I am afraid to settle down because I am looking forward to be like them in the future. Nad that's the reason why I am so disappointed right now because I thought I found someone to share my everything with. Still, I was wrong again.. for a couple of days I let myself cry big time for the first time. I feel so tired with everything but I have to be strong in order to survive as no one understand me well the way I think. I feel my life starting to do it's move and preparing me with everything. And then I realize maybe God found it's way how will I cope up with everything.
As for myself I think I really should focus with my career and future. I will just forget that love thingy. I should focus now to myself and my family.
If really love is for me I will let it but not on easy way like I used to.
I will stop craving for attention and affection. I hope I can do this with the help of our dear Lord God.
All is well.
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