Chaos is Only Understood when it is Loved by The Wild, Not the Weak.

He left as soon as he saw my bad side, but I stayed when I saw his. I guess I loved him more.

or..

After all, maybe this is just nothing. Maybe the pain in my chest is just my ego. Maybe, it hurts because my pride won't let admit it.. that I am losing this. I can't accept it because from the start I was so vocal about hating him. Then now it's the other way around. So I can't take it.

I'm used to being alone.. so the pain can stay with me alone.. I won't have to tell everyone about it.

I wonder if Love really exist for me.. do I?

Or maybe it's all because..

we both started it the wrong way ideally I should not expect it to be right in the future.

bitterness filled my veins again everytime he pop up on my mind. Like now. I can't contain it. I don't know what's the point of telling to me that I am the one who wants this. But when it comes to other ppl he's the one who want it.

Who's the Liar?

is it myself or him?

is it wrong to be yourself? Well for me, NO.

In time I know, I will get over this. But not now nor later. It always take time for me.

Maybe, someday.

Somehow I really don't know what to do at this point. Even though someone approaching it will always be him.

Oh God, what have I done to deserve this chaos?

or did I just trust a wrong person once again?

I let him to made a choice. He made a choice thus I suffered deeply for it. I've let it go, but I'll never forget it.

Or it's just that nobody gets me. I'm immature and mature at the same time. I'm a goof but also deep and weird My mind is so developed. I'm strange. And currently a stranger to everyone that I treated as a part of me yet doesn't really know me but so quick to judge everything without analyzing the real thing.

Welcome to my Life.