Grumpy Morning

I woke up this morning feeling grumpy.

Just wanna cry out loud.

I felt my heart on emotional pain.

And I don’t know why.

I still tried to act normal and took a deep breath.

Yet I cannot stop it.

What’s happening to me?

Maybe this is the pain that I’ve been trying to escape for years.

To looked tough.

To keep on going;

Why now that I am learning to be happy all by myself suddenly goes wrong.

Or maybe this is a self-reminder that no matter what

All the past will haunt and daunt you despite of acceptance.

Or maybe because I am still afraid to get hurt yet I keep on taking the risk

Question is... Am I still really taking the risk?

Oh God, help me to overcome this.

I don’t know what to do again. I am going gaga.