Masochist.

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Life is really do unfair. Why?

Because sometime when ppl do something about you even though you'll gonna hurt big time yet when they ask you another chamce you'll still let them in your life. Pero pag ikaw na ang nasa sitwasyon nila they will turn you fucking down.

Isn't it unfair? Yes it is.

The one who'll always forgive is the one who's giving so much love. Showing your love is not the only way yet the way how you handle you own faze to keep the one you love still with you. Because even though they know they might hurt you in the end it will end up with nevernding chance.

Just accept the fact if they can't return and didn't know how to understand it. Some ppl will just use everthing you invested for the sake of their own. And they will leave you with nothing but hatred to yourself.

And that's the hard part. You keep the mantra to yourself that "It's always fucking okay".

Now I understand why some of my friends calls me a masochist.

And now I know what really love is.

And I don't know until when will I be the masochist one. 

I don't know until when I will dig the deepness of my thoughts coz I know I still did't met yet the ppl who can help me to dig and plant something gonna give shade to those holes sooner or later.