Baby girl.
Am I just afraid to lay down my cards? or I just find it not useful anymore?
HA HA HA.
Then there this man who's keep on pestering me for quite few weeks. Trying to enter my suffocated life. And I keep on turning him down. I feel better.
That's where am I good at. Keep ppl pushing away in order to prevent another stupidity might happen.
I still do have my cards to play with. These cards are my last resot to completely heal again as easy as 123 but why do I have this kind of feels that I have to endure all the pain, sadness and agony. Oh one more thing, I have this feels that want to embrace my anxiety. Not to be devastated again but to endure all the things in the world hence it'll be just a futile once life happens to play with my iwn world again.
Somehow am still scared. I know I am a realistic person but hey there still a girl inside me who just wanted to be loved until the end. A girl who want just a peaceful and uncomplicated life. That girl was me a long time ago. Maybe it's not yet your time to show up again baby girl, you're still way far to be in real world again. You're still sensitive to absorb all the things in the world. Let the time to come someday.. there will be the one who'll protect you and will never leave you behind no matter what. Let me be your shield for the meantime . And take all the pain. Let me devour all these things. It's our way for you to prepare in the future.
I can do it! Fighting!🤗
HA HA HA.
Then there this man who's keep on pestering me for quite few weeks. Trying to enter my suffocated life. And I keep on turning him down. I feel better.
That's where am I good at. Keep ppl pushing away in order to prevent another stupidity might happen.
I still do have my cards to play with. These cards are my last resot to completely heal again as easy as 123 but why do I have this kind of feels that I have to endure all the pain, sadness and agony. Oh one more thing, I have this feels that want to embrace my anxiety. Not to be devastated again but to endure all the things in the world hence it'll be just a futile once life happens to play with my iwn world again.
Somehow am still scared. I know I am a realistic person but hey there still a girl inside me who just wanted to be loved until the end. A girl who want just a peaceful and uncomplicated life. That girl was me a long time ago. Maybe it's not yet your time to show up again baby girl, you're still way far to be in real world again. You're still sensitive to absorb all the things in the world. Let the time to come someday.. there will be the one who'll protect you and will never leave you behind no matter what. Let me be your shield for the meantime . And take all the pain. Let me devour all these things. It's our way for you to prepare in the future.
I can do it! Fighting!🤗
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