sudden

Cannot write any when you’re happy.

Yet too much effort to write when you’re sad and..
hurt.

I cannot find the right words to express what I really feel right now.

Feels good on the very first time but in the end...

here we go again.

Too afraid to get hurt again.

I’m scared.

Should I get scared for myself or to the what will gonna happen next.

All this feels too good to be true.

But I am still here cherishing the moment and just waiting for the end.

I fucked up again.

Sorry self.